Not Apologizing For Being Me

Lately I’ve been dealing with this … ‘to please or not to please’ issue. Many people are trying to pull me in so many different directions that I end up neglecting the direction I would like to go in. I’m tired of apologizing for being me. Do you ever go through that?   

It seems that this “issues” comes in stages. I address the issue and then it goes away for a while then it comes right back.

Truly, I get tired of people pleasing. I honestly don’t believe its G-d’s intention that we be door mats for  other people.  We are called to help them and be selfless , but not to " ...cast our pearls before swine.." . I have fought with that subject since I was little. I do my best not to upset people, no matter what the cost is to me! 

Well, I’m striking a blow for freedom!

A friend of mine wrote a wonderful blog on this very subject. She put it more eloquently than I did, but the point is the same! Here’s a quote from what she said:   

“…..same for this little ole' blog. I don't care what it's supposed to look like. It reflects who I am.
It's never very predictable, sometimes it's messy, incoherent, hot and cold, wishy-washy, and offensive.. but that's okay. I don't post when I don't want to.
I don't apologize for lack of posts or disappearing.
I surely don't apologize for my opinion.
That's what blogging issss. Sharing YOUR life. What makes YOU happy. What makes you sad, what makes you tick. Not what you think others want to hear.
Connecting with others in a real way.”

Here is her blog post : ->http://bebebirdbeck.blogspot.com/2012/04/not-sorry-for-who-i-am.html

 

She went on to say much more than this, but this really resonated with me. I won’t apologize for who I am or how I think or feel. In truth, I hate being used, or told what I will or will not do, by whomever concerns themselves with by business. This may sound a bit rude or even offensive, but sometimes the truth hurts.

I am only one person and I need to find out what makes me smile, not what others tell me to do to make me “happy”. Which really just makes them feel better and me feel terrible. Here are the things that “I “want.

I love spending more time with my husband. Rather that’s popular or not.

I’m doing whatever makes me smile. Rather that makes people happy or not. (And if this be treason, make the most of it)

I will see myself as the beautiful, loving, caring, person I am. And I will not let others bring me down or make me think less of who I am because it makes them feel better. (And I don’t care if that was a run on)

I refuse to waste my days in effort to change myself for other people’s gratification.

 There are plenty of ways to describe me. These are merely a few of them.I love Yeshua (Jesus) with all my heart. And I really hate when people make fun of him .

I love to Laugh. I’m super talkative (the trick is getting me to shut up). 

I’m very opinionated. 

I try to dress trendy. 

10% of the time I succeed. 

I love to sew and make things, and I’m usually proud of it. 

I’d love a few tattoos but hubby isn’t quite there yet. 

I WILL be getting my nose pierced!   

I love to talk about how much my husband and I are in love. 

I’m super passionate about many causes that are dear to my heart. And I don’t care if that offends somebody.

The point I’m trying to make is not that I’m a big “arse-hole” and that I don’t care about anybody else. I’m just trying to be true to me for a change. To accept me for the person I am. I will accept the good, the bad, and the ugly, parts of me. 

So .. with that said , I leave you with another quote from my dear friend Amber .

  “I love being me. No one else is me, and that's pretty darn special.”